Stupid Immunization Shots!

So it's that time again, the time that I dread...David's immunization appointment. I hate seeing my little man cry and last time I cried with him. This time around I thought I was prepared but as we were driving to the doctor's I was having anxiety. David was sitting in his car seat enjoying the scenery and I was sitting in the front panicking.

I tried stalling the shots by asking the doctor various questions, "Can I use a bottle warmer to warm up my breastmilk? When should I stop pumping? Should David be taking Vitamin D?" Basically everything that I knew the answer to. It was a matter of time that I ran out of stupid questions.

The doctor then asked whether I wanted to give David a flu shot. My friend went with her little one to the doctor's a few days ago so she prepared me that I will be getting that question. And of course I didn't feel prepared to answer. "ANOTHER SHOT!!!!" was what I was thinking in my head. My response, "I don't know." I asked the doctor to explain to me the necessity of the shot and his opinion on it. After hearing him out, I turned to Gene for his opinion, "I don't know." Ugh, another decision I had to make. After thinking about it for a little I decided to give him the flu shot.

As the nurse was getting ready to do the shots I stepped away from David. I couldn't watch. 1,2,3,4 and done! So quick and he was such a big, brave boy! He yelled for a brief second and he was fine. As for me, I was mad at the nurse for doing the shots and I was mad at myself for bringing him to the doctor's. All in all, I was mad at everyone and everything at that moment. I couldn't wait to leave that stupid office and get home to spend some time cuddling with my little man.

Once we got home I went to my 2nd half, my pump. While pumping I just let out all my emotions and of course I started crying. I was devastated by everything and I couldn't help but cry. Why was I crying? I have no idea because David was happy and sleeping.

I can't even imagine what it's going to be like when he's older and understands the concept of shots. I still think that it's going to be harder for me and the doctors and nurses will have to be calming me down. Probably even David will be calming me down. Ugh, I'm not looking forward to those moments.